GREY AREA

Drip...drip...drip...

From the tip of the knife, blood drips

As it hangs loose from my fingertips

...

I will not let go...I will not hold on

I will not be here...I can't be there...

Grey is my favorite color.

Metal to flesh...look into my eyes

I will not...I cannot slash your throat

Or drive this...deep...deep

into...flesh...fresh, human...man...

I love to drive things into things...

Acid in bottle...tilted, glass... bottle

I will not...I cannot tip it further upon features

Calm facials...sweet in sleep...only

Or force this...down...down

inner tubes..changing states as it flows

Watching liquids flow...calms me greatly

A presence lingers...a shadow hovers

around my bed...hands grab me

Reality catapults me out from my nightmare

And again I'm here...drenched in sweat

So I will not be here...I can't be there...

Grey is my favorite color.

LAST SCENE...LAST ACT

Let's go waltz on your grave, my beast

All through our steps, recalling

Those nights you spent with me

You played next to me on that common stage

You danced with me…then laughed with me

Soon you cried with me…then...

We drank poison together

Bitter-sweet poison together

Dying was inevitable with you, my dear beast

Well, the curtain has been lowered now

Let's step forward and proudly take a bow

We're left alone after the final act

All other players are gone at last

So let's do that dance again..

Let's waltz on your shiny marble grave.

SLIDESHOW (Disposable Brains)

If I could give something 

Of mine 

Away

I would not hesitate

 To take

My brain 

Out 

Wrap it up 

In soft gauze

Pack it up 

In an old 

Brown box

And in red ink

In block letters

Scribble 

‘FRAGILE’ 

On all faces

…

If I could ask 

A favour 

From the most high

I’d say this prayer 

With a sigh 

‘Dear Lord

 I need mercy

I need you 

To take away 

My memory 

Take the anger

Take the bitterness

They leave me tired

Stressed

…

Tonight 

It's just gray thoughts

Tears 

Memories 

That smell brought

A familiar pain 

That seems to seep 

Through me 

I am numb

Take this sense 

As well

This spiteful sense 

Of smell

…

What my eyes have seen

My hands touched

What my ears have heard

My body felt

Where my feet 

Have led me, 

My knees crouched

Have been elements

Pieces 

Of the jig-saw

Undo them

Undo them ALL

And throw them out

…

This slideshow

This slideshow keeps running

I can’t find 

The stop button

I’m chilled 

To the bones…

My blood 

Is freezing

Fear 

Keeps me up 

Fighting

Screaming out 

To whoever cares 

To listen

“What you keep doing 

To me 

Is so 

Not 

Fair

I can't keep 

Reliving 

This nightmare

You have to understand 

It’s time

Understand

It's time 

To be set free

So help me

Help me lose my memory