Friday, 24 August 2012

ADAM & EVE



Let’s not go down this lane
For when we start this journey
And gaze upon each other’s nakedness

We are two innocent souls on the edge
Conflicting thoughts flooding our heads
Thoughts of eternity…fading away into night

As fabric gives way to flesh
Hands caress bodies…lips find lips
Our consciences scream out…our hearts skip

We know…the next step ends in doom
Yet heated passion leaves no room
For sane decisions

When we, first two
Become a corrupt one

The demons in hell beat hard on their drums
The darkness engulfs us as we move

Together…dancing to that evil rhythm
Our breaths unite in a death-chant
Suffocating the light in our hearts

Lucifer lifts his three-pronged fork
And hurls it into our merged bodies
As we shudder and scream out the cry of defeat

Then…

We reach the core

When we go down
This enticing lane…
We trade our innocence
We trade our light
Just so we can have a bite
Of that red…juicy…poisoned…ancient apple
Just a piece, my dear…
Just a piece, of that old, old lie.

Wednesday, 15 August 2012

THAT DAY


Time all wasted, time all gone
Where the 'excuse my word' did I go wrong?
Milk turned rancid, bread gone stale
Wine now tasting like some bad ale

I've gone on a crazy safari ride
All alone, spurning a guide
I've walked long beside this glistening lake
Stumbling on rocks, falling flat on my face

All these years...

I've been tip-toeing around a wretched heart
Too scared to go down on my knees and touch
To thrust that lighted lamp into my life
And put an end to this full-armored strife

All these years...

I've desperately looked back to any moment of peace
Of pure innocence wrapped in childhood memories
I've groped in the dark, looking for that doorway
That will finally lead me out into a brand new day.

That day...

The sun will come up and scare away the rain
The wind will sing aloud my new-found name
The moon and the stars will appear more bright
No need to look elsewhere for their source of light

That day...

I will wake up and find that I'm whole
Warmed up with love, never again to be cold
I will step gingerly out of my rose-colored bed
And sing blissful tunes off the top of my head

I will dance to the sounds of awesome nature
To the song of a bird, to the cries of each creature
I will walk up to the top of a dew-covered mountain
And shout, "I've found peace...blessed peace like a fountain"

Then I can breathe in the abundant love
Then, only then will I look up above
I'll let the warm rays fall down on me
And I'll marvel at how amazing freedom can be

Then, 
The very depths of my heart will whisper
That It is well...it is well with my soul.

Thursday, 12 July 2012

TRAPPED


The melody in my heart turns discordant
My tears freeze midway down my cheeks
To my flesh I've now become a servant
And my mind with immense sorrow, leaks.

Pain is a constant visitor
In this damned body of mine
Guilt, ever so sinister
Charges me a heavy fine

Anxieties like large, flesh-eating termites
Crawl up my every opening
Feasting greedily on my insides
Dear Lord, what is happening?!

Must I stay like this forever...
Dining with images of my fears?
Must I, Oh Abba, again shiver
At the memories of past years?

NO!

Do not let go...

Hand me back my sanity
And save me from this death i'm locked in

For I am trapped

Trapped

... in my own body

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

EXPIRED...


Who are you?
You who now roams with me
Breathing slowly down my neck!

Who are you?
You who won't let me be
Reminding me i'm a wreck!

I expired...
Yesterday
I got choked by my tears...

I wonder...
Today
What I've been all these years...

That body...
you buried
It was not mine!

I lost it...
way long
Before I died!

But you stay with me
You!

I know what I need to
Do!

I need to go out and find me
I need to get rid of that seed
I need to disentangle me from your snare

Oh..I need to wake up from this nightmare.

Monday, 28 May 2012

HEARTLESS


My heart fell out as I journeyed here
So in this moment I’m sure it’s pretty clear
That I am heartless!

The emptiness I feel is pleasant I must say
I feel so much relieved that
That part of me is gone; my pains have faded away
Into nothing

Makes me feel like running
Across this meadow

So let the birds sing…

Their sweet melodies fill up this hollow
Left…
In my chest
And leave me happy
Calm and content

I won’t bother looking for and fitting back my heart
If by any chance, you come across it,
Do with it as you please
For half my life it has played a bitter part
Serving me dark and inviting delicacies

But if by accident I find it somehow,
I’ll lay it up on a silver tray
And slide it in the refrigerator
I’ll let it freeze…
The bloody thing!
I’ll let it turn to stone
Bloody…cold…stone!

And when I find that it’s solid enough
I’ll take it out and hold it up high
In line
With my shoulders,
Hurl it against this world’s wall
And watch it blast into smithereens

So wherever you are now, my heart
Stay far, far away from me
For if again you dare cross my path
I’ll crush you down, down to dust with glee!!

Wednesday, 16 May 2012

Evading Sleep

Can you SEE the demons in my head
Driving me crazy...
Leading me to the very places I dread?

Can you Hear their whispered threats
Draining me dry...
Dragging me to life's roughest edge?

Can you SMELL their gory, bloody bodies
Doused in darkness...
Hovering over my flower garden like  killer bees?

Can you almost reach out and TOUCH
Their lethal shadows...
As they patrol, doing the night watch?

All my senses stay up drinking coffee
Sleep cannot come now...
sleep, do not come
They are waiting for me there,
I can see
So do not lead me to them,
Oh brief respite to mankind
Please,
Do not take me.

Wednesday, 18 April 2012

ENEMIES AT WORK




Eno was in a fix. The holy water Prophet Methuselah had given her to sprinkle around the house had proven either too weak to fight the devil or totally impotent.
 “Lord, why me? Why has the devil decided to plant his seeds in my household?”
 Eno wailed.
Frimpomaa, her neighbor and friend who looked even sadder than Eno took a deep breath and sighed…
“My sister, the last time the devil tried playing such tricks on me, I fought him with his own poison. That’s how to go about it these days, you know. And so I did just that! I tell you, that juju man is the best in this area. He gave me instant results. You must go to him quickly before the evil enters your last daughter too. Leave that good for nothing prophet alone.”
“That will mean all three of them! No, I won’t be able to handle that! Oh how I wish my husband was here to support me. Kwabena, why did you have to die and leave me to swallow such bitter medicine?”
A few minutes later, when both ladies had settled down considerably, in walked a young man of about 24 years, dressed sharply in white slacks, and a matching white shirt. He was tall and skinny and carried a bright pink backpack. The moment Eno set eyes on him she started to lament.
“God She is at it again!”
The young man whispered to himself and greeted his wailing mother and her rather angry looking friend.
“Today of all days, young man, why do you decide to come in and remind me of my pain? Why do you have to even walk in here wearing that? Reminding me yet again what the devil is busily working out in my life.”
The young man laughed softly and cleared his throat.
“Mother, how many times do you want me to explain to you that this is exactly what I want to be and the devil has no hand in it? Nobody forced me into this. It was my personal choice to become a nurse!”
Eno jumped up suddenly and started pacing.
 “Oh no, he has mentioned it again! Oh gods of my native land! My ancestors! Why are you slumbering in your graves while my enemies take control of my son’s brain?”
The young was man was shifitng his balance from one foot the other, clearly getting uncomfortable.
“Mom, I am not mad!”
His mother rushed towards him and stopped abruptly directly in front of him, looking him straight in the eye.
“Oh, but you are, because I don’t understand you and your choice!”
She looked ready to cry, her lips quivering and eyes darting from the house, to the young man to Frimpomaa.
 “Why couldn’t you become doctor? Why a nurse? Why do you choose to be a woman? Is it because I had a daughter before and after you?”
She settled both hands on her hips and sighed.
“No! That is not the reason. It is the work of my enemies! If it were not so, my firstborn will not be off on…what do they call it?”
She turned to Frimpomaa as if asking for help
“Aha! Peacekeeping! My daughter will not be off keeping peace in some war-torn faraway land while her mates are exactly where they should be, in their husband’s homes, making babies! She’s out there balancing guns in those hands that should be knitting sweaters for my grandchildren! So I know, my enemies, I know you are seriously after me. But you will not get hold of my last child! No, she will have a nice gentleman, who surely will not be a nurse, come ask for her hand in marriage. Yes, you won’t have it all, devil…you won’t have it all!”
The young man, who could not stand any more of the drama, picked up his bag and left.
“Eno, this is a sign of darker things to come! Tomorrow morning, be prepared, I will go with you to the man I talked to you about. This will surely come to an end!”

Some months and several visits to the jujuman later, the last born, Gifty was on the porch with the young man, Anthony, who was a nurse.
“Tony, it has been 3 weeks since mother left to the village and I have not heard a word from her. I’m beginning to get worried”
The young man tried to hide his amusement.
“Worried? My dear, she said she was going to consult the gods and her ancestors, right? Only God knows exactly where she is right now. And if she is there because of my being a nurse or our elder sister being an army officer, then it might take a while”
“I wonder what will happen when she comes back to find out what I’ve decided to do to raise money for medical school.”
Gifty added with a downcast look on her face.
“Haha, Great! Now you are going to have mother thinking the devil switched our souls! Your idea is brilliant. If I had time on my hands like you have, I would have done the same thing to raise money for myself too. Just be careful because you know you’ll be virtually the only female out there.”
They walked back into the house laughing and ready for dinner.

Meanwhile, somewhere in some war-torn faraway land, the first daughter, Agnes,  who was off keeping peace had just finished reading a letter from her nurse brother Anthony and Gifty her Kid sister.
“Mother started going crazy when I turned down the seventh and last suitor that came knocking on our door and broke the news that I had joined the military and was going off to camp in a week. She cried and begged me to rethink my decision. She called in her prophet to pray, she sprinkled holy water on my pillow and did all she could to stop me but here I am.”
The peace keeping daughter was talking to one of the guys who was lying next to her. She and the rest of the troops were all in a tent, resting their tired limbs…it was evening, and peace had almost been restored so the region was quite calm.
The first daughter continued.
“A couple of years later, my brother borrowed money from me, got forms from a nursing school, had me help him fill them, and got enrolled in nursing school. For about two weeks my mother made herself believe we were pulling a practical joke on her. Then after she realized it wasn’t a joke, she got the prophet to come live at home with us for about three days for thorough cleansing of our home and souls. Eventually, she begged my brother to move out so she wouldn’t go mad and I also moved out soon after. Now I have news that my sister is up to something that I’m sure mother will suffer cardiac arrest from when she finds out, and I’m not exaggerating.”
By then, the tent was quiet. The men were all asleep.
First daughter straightened up in her sleeping bag and went off to sleep too.

Also, in the village where the gods and ancestors were being consulted, Eno was on her way back home.
            “Who did you say you are gain?”
She had wrapped her head tightly with a red scarf, a sign that all was not well with her.
The middle-aged man, dressed in a caramel colored shirt and khaki trousers replied, looking up above his glasses that was resting on the tip of his big nose.
“I’m the head teacher”
“And what did you just tell me?”
Eno asked again.
“I said I’m glad you’ve decided to go home now. You’ve been here too long, and that fetish priest is just draining you of your money. I have heard why you are here and I just want to tell you that there is nothing spiritual at work. It’s perfectly normal for a man to be a nurse and a woman a soldier.”
The wrinkles on Eno’s face deepened.
“I will go, but know that I have eyes watching you. I know now that you’re one of my enemies. My stay here is hindering your works isn’t it? I am going so don’t worry, just beware.”
With that, she walked off towards the main road, carrying her luggage.

After a long journey back to the city from the village where the jujuman was being consulted, Eno walked out of the lorry station to the roadside and hailed a taxi. The taxi stopped and she got in.
It took a while for Gifty to realise she had picked up her own mother after she had taken a closer look in her rear mirror. She turned sharply.
“Mother! You’re finally back!”
Eno, looked up into her lastborn’s eyes, clutched her chest and collapsed onto the seat.
Gifty’s body shook with sobs as she sped to the nearest hospital.
Mother was barely moving. She was barely breathing.
After two weeks she was discharged. The doctors had said she had had a mild heart attack. She was in bed and had refused to talk to any of her children who had all gathered in the sitting room, with the pastor who had arrived that morning on Eno’s demand. He was younger than all the others and had just recovered from a fit of laughter after the children had filled him in on exactly what the problem with their mother was. In between all that, Agnes couldn’t keep her eyes off him. He wore no ring either, she had noted.
“Wow!”
He exclaimed, trying to hold back more laughter.
“Your mother sure has serious enemies at work in her backyard”
The sound of their laughter got to Eno in her bed. She rolled her eyes up to the ceiling and whispered,
“The Devil is a liar!”

Thursday, 5 April 2012

My village, AFRICA.


With each heart beat
 I see visions…
Faces…
Of kinsmen from next door
Burning in domestic flames
Screaming out in mortal pain!

With each drum beat
I see…
The Bloodshot eyes of young people like me
Balancing guns
In their premature hands

I watch in horror
As they spray bullets into the thoraxes of others

Familiar tunes play in my head
Of songs continually sang
By my mothers…

I hear them whisper to themselves;
“Was it better for our babies to be born alive?
…Or…”

I hear too, the soul of the stillborn child rejoicing…
“Freedom!” he cries!

I know how that unblemished soul…
Feels…

No need…
To grow up and fight brothers
No need…
To end up with nothing
Struggling to live…
No need…
To die with arms stretched out…
Mere inches away…
From freedom!
And in the afterlife only say;
“I was almost there”

That is not good enough for me!!!

If I could change hearts
I would touch the icy replicas
Of those
Ones who set fire to my neighbors’ roofs
And look away!
Those vipers who hang up lies
Defiling the skies
Who present poison in tinted vials
As doses of truths
We are forced to take after each meal

We are one community
One nation
With one history
 Why these differences then?

I look into the compound of another
And what do I see?
What do I hear?
What do I smell?
 I see Bloodshed
I hear Curses from sons’ mouths to fathers’ ears!
I smell decaying flesh partly ravaged by;
Vultures…
Dogs…
Those that once roamed our village
As harmless birds
As pets even!
They stood watching…waiting
For the people to slaughter each other
And afterwards...fight over lifeless flesh
The cowards they are!!!

I will not console myself with lies
That…
“Things are getting better”
NO!
At the hands of our own,
My neighbors still suffer!!

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

GREY AREA

Drip...drip...drip...
From the tip of the knife, blood drips
As it hangs loose from my fingertips
...
I will not let go...I will not hold on
I will not be here...I can't be there...
Grey is my favorite color.

Metal to flesh...look into my eyes
I will not...I cannot slash your throat
Or drive this...deep...deep
into...flesh...fresh, human...man...
I love to drive things into things...

Acid in bottle...tilted, glass... bottle
I will not...I cannot tip it further upon features
Calm facials...sweet in sleep...only
Or force this...down...down
inner tubes..changing states as it flows
Watching liquids flow...calms me greatly

A presence lingers...a shadow hovers
around my bed...hands grab me
Reality catapults me out from my nightmare
And again I'm here...drenched in sweat

So I will not be here...I can't be there...
Grey is my favorite color.

Sunday, 18 March 2012

LAST SCENE...LAST ACT

Let's go waltz on your grave, my beast
All through our steps, recalling
Those nights you spent with me

You played next to me on that common stage
You danced with me…then laughed with me
Soon you cried with me…then...
We drank poison together

Bitter-sweet poison together

Dying was inevitable with you, my dear beast


Well, the curtain has been lowered now

Let's step forward and proudly take a bow

We're left alone after the final act
All other players are gone at last
So let's do that dance again..

Let's waltz on your shiny marble grave.

Thursday, 15 March 2012

SLIDESHOW (Disposable Brains)



If I could give something 
Of mine 
Away
I would not hesitate
 To take
My brain 
Out 
Wrap it up 
In soft gauze
Pack it up 
In an old 
Brown box
And in red ink
In block letters
Scribble 
‘FRAGILE’ 
On all faces




If I could ask 
A favour 
From the most high
I’d say this prayer 
With a sigh 

‘Dear Lord
 I need mercy
I need you 
To take away 
My memory 


Take the anger
Take the bitterness


They leave me tired
Stressed




Tonight 
It's just gray thoughts


Tears 
Memories 
That smell brought


A familiar pain 
That seems to seep 
Through me 


I am numb


Take this sense 
As well

This spiteful sense 
Of smell




What my eyes have seen
My hands touched


What my ears have heard
My body felt


Where my feet 
Have led me, 
My knees crouched


Have been elements
Pieces 
Of the jig-saw


Undo them
Undo them ALL
And throw them out




This slideshow
This slideshow keeps running


I can’t find 
The stop button


I’m chilled 
To the bones…
My blood 
Is freezing


Fear 
Keeps me up 
Fighting


Screaming out 
To whoever cares 
To listen


“What you keep doing 
To me 
Is so 
Not 
Fair


I can't keep 
Reliving 
This nightmare


You have to understand 


It’s time
Understand
It's time 
To be set free


So help me

Help me lose my memory

Monday, 27 February 2012

BROKEN

I think of the trouble you put me through
And all the pain that leaves me blue
I think of the time I waste to grieve
And all the love you failed to give

I think of her; she stood aloof
She was too scared to tell the truth
I think of me in that dark, stinky room
Cold wind sweeping concrete floor like a broom

The rage in your eyes; who were you mad at?
Yourself, your destiny or this damned earth?
Do I help ease your pain when you see me cry
After I drag myself out from the dark corners of that sty?

The nightmares wake us up...
Yours not too  different from mine
We both rest on the devil's lap
We survive on bloody grime

It didn't have to be this way
Why didn't you let yourself stay sane?
No, you let them get to you...
And now I have gone crazy too

They sent you here, those ones, didn't they?
You spat on my sunlight and made it less gay
You uprooted them all...roses, blue bells
Violets, lavender, their comforting smells

You stripped me down to tears
Crimson tears laden with hell-inspired fears
And you danced around my fate
Making fun of my heart, laid in state

You took them all...all the sweetness, all the spice
You took them all...all the laughter, all the smiles
And now I have your eyes, filled with that rage
Like a wild animal, I should be caged

For I have this urge to strangle you
Slowly to death, yes that would do
Or I'd just damage a nerve or two
For all the trouble you put me through

SCARS




I must be brave
When tomorrow comes
Those long gone
Were in my place once
I cannot doubt
I will not run
I must not cry
When tomorrow comes
Three moons ago,
I was on the other side
I watched...
Proud blossoming buds stood in line
Tears of joy were mingled with silent fears
"Customs do not die"
Say the ORACLES and SEERS
I must not tremble when tomorrow comes
This mirror resting between my thighs
Will no longer tell me
This blissful lie
Then, I'll be a woman...
I'll sit with the others
And their scars
I must be prepared when tomorrow comes
Mother, did you ever hide 
In your rooms and dream?
Dreading...
Those sharp dark blades...
Old wrinkled hands
Did you ever think of the loss?
Did you think of the pain?
Oh I must forget this nightmare
When tomorrow comes
When the cock crows,
I'll be first in line
I will adorn my waist
With the heaviest of beads
Rub scented Shea butter down 
Beyond my knees
I'll hold my head high
And as i lay down, legs apart
My heart will be full of joy
And my eyes, dry
I'd bless those old wrinkled hands

But for now just let me...
Let me look in this mirror one last time
Let me gaze at this beauty I see

When tomorrow comes, 
It will be another scar
My beauty will be nothing
Nothing
But a scar.


Thursday, 23 February 2012

MY DAY-LONG LOVE




This blessed dew-filled morning
Butterflies stopped to watch my heart step-dancing


Deep breaths filled my eager lungs
As my mind flew up to higher ranks

It's cause you rose with the sun...
And you shone so hot and bright
I felt no need to go out and run


...Not till sunset came in sight

The day is ending, tell me what now?
When it's done, where do we go?
My sweat feels heavy on my brow
I find myself wanting to scream out; 'NO!'

Will l run home and look through the peep hole?
Look through, into your tear-filled eyes?
Boring into...reading the letters of my soul?


Will i break down and cry again? 

Knowing....
We're both sad...sad to watch as our day dies...?

Thursday, 16 February 2012

HE HAS ME


Once upon a time, I stood before my one true love
And spat in his face
That heart-breaking cliche
..."It's over between us"...
Yet in that moment, he loved me.

Many turns back when I packed up my bags
And moved out of that Mansion he gave me
Acting out in ways worse than words
Saying..."I met someone else"...
All through it, he loved me.

Tracing back tears long past
Tears he shed when on that bed
He once laid in...deep in my heart
He found another, with a face too familiar...
In all that pain, he loved me.

With the knowledge that there was another
Once his right-hand man, now a traitor
With hot burning coals now in the picture
And I, openly playing with fire
He wrung his hands in agony, yes he loved me.

...

Once upon a time, lust drew me away
Images of pleasure caused my heart to sway
Was almost real, watching from a distance
An almost pleasant lie...a mirage, in fact
Yet one thing among all stood true; he loved me

But then a spot in my soul could still remember
The rhythm our hearts composed back when they beat together
He knows my heart inside, out and under
Each drop of blood that runs red through my veins
In this life he gave me, his love solely reigns.

So in this moment I say never again
Leaving him only caused me too much pain
I can breathe while he's in his rightful place
Here in my heart, safely seated on his golden throne
I'd shout with joy that He has me...
He has me and my entire soul

Saturday, 4 February 2012

VENTING!!!


I'm not here to produce poetry
It's time for random venting

Like brown paper bag threatening to burst with heat
I need to slide open the bag and let out the steam

Like microwaved extra butter and caramel popcorn
I need to let the steam carry the tempting smell that's born

Away from me...miles away into heaven
Into the nostrils of someone more deserving

Who will get up and pursue that which I let out
And when he finds it...will dip his hands and scout

Into caramel-glazed popcorn and have a fill...

Of my microwaved sweetness
While I stand back and be the witness

So this probably makes no sense at all
Doesn't have to, it's the law

Of venting...it has to be crap
I need to let out before i snap!

Tonight I'm not in the mood
To sit behind my loom

And weave jumbled-up words...
All throughout, hoping it takes away my hurt

I'm in the mood to vent
......and this is how far I went