Tuesday 20 March 2012

GREY AREA

Drip...drip...drip...
From the tip of the knife, blood drips
As it hangs loose from my fingertips
...
I will not let go...I will not hold on
I will not be here...I can't be there...
Grey is my favorite color.

Metal to flesh...look into my eyes
I will not...I cannot slash your throat
Or drive this...deep...deep
into...flesh...fresh, human...man...
I love to drive things into things...

Acid in bottle...tilted, glass... bottle
I will not...I cannot tip it further upon features
Calm facials...sweet in sleep...only
Or force this...down...down
inner tubes..changing states as it flows
Watching liquids flow...calms me greatly

A presence lingers...a shadow hovers
around my bed...hands grab me
Reality catapults me out from my nightmare
And again I'm here...drenched in sweat

So I will not be here...I can't be there...
Grey is my favorite color.

Sunday 18 March 2012

LAST SCENE...LAST ACT

Let's go waltz on your grave, my beast
All through our steps, recalling
Those nights you spent with me

You played next to me on that common stage
You danced with me…then laughed with me
Soon you cried with me…then...
We drank poison together

Bitter-sweet poison together

Dying was inevitable with you, my dear beast


Well, the curtain has been lowered now

Let's step forward and proudly take a bow

We're left alone after the final act
All other players are gone at last
So let's do that dance again..

Let's waltz on your shiny marble grave.

Thursday 15 March 2012

SLIDESHOW (Disposable Brains)



If I could give something 
Of mine 
Away
I would not hesitate
 To take
My brain 
Out 
Wrap it up 
In soft gauze
Pack it up 
In an old 
Brown box
And in red ink
In block letters
Scribble 
‘FRAGILE’ 
On all faces




If I could ask 
A favour 
From the most high
I’d say this prayer 
With a sigh 

‘Dear Lord
 I need mercy
I need you 
To take away 
My memory 


Take the anger
Take the bitterness


They leave me tired
Stressed




Tonight 
It's just gray thoughts


Tears 
Memories 
That smell brought


A familiar pain 
That seems to seep 
Through me 


I am numb


Take this sense 
As well

This spiteful sense 
Of smell




What my eyes have seen
My hands touched


What my ears have heard
My body felt


Where my feet 
Have led me, 
My knees crouched


Have been elements
Pieces 
Of the jig-saw


Undo them
Undo them ALL
And throw them out




This slideshow
This slideshow keeps running


I can’t find 
The stop button


I’m chilled 
To the bones…
My blood 
Is freezing


Fear 
Keeps me up 
Fighting


Screaming out 
To whoever cares 
To listen


“What you keep doing 
To me 
Is so 
Not 
Fair


I can't keep 
Reliving 
This nightmare


You have to understand 


It’s time
Understand
It's time 
To be set free


So help me

Help me lose my memory