Monday 24 June 2013

PENITENCE...?




I probably should not
Be kneeling
Before this
Makeshift altar

But somehow
I got here
Not so sure
What to say 
Though

So you know what?
I’ll just kneel
And remain silent
Hoping
You decode
The words
Knocking
Against each other
In my mind
I can’t bear 
To speak
Of where
I have been


Were you around the corner
Somewhere watching?
I hope not
It would have 
Broken your heart
To see me
Strip down
And bathe
In that…
Never mind


Now,
See these tears?
I’m going 
To wipe them all
Off
I am not sure
Anymore
If they are genuine
Or maybe I just
Fake it well


My eyes are dry
And I’m breathless
My chest hurts
I can’t tell
If
It’s an infection
Or this pain
Is from last night’s…
Never mind


Do I get another chance?
Okay, forget I asked.
How shameless of me!
We both know
I have a knack
For messing up
Chances
Can we thrash this out
Another way?

Hello...
Are you following 
These thoughts?
Because
I’m really 
Not going
To say 
A word

It’s become 
A ritual
I’m too deflated
To repeat


So look,
I’m going to get up
Now
Assuming
This worked
You know
This...
This silence

Well
I hope it did
And oh,
One more thing

……

I Love You


Amen.


Wednesday 19 June 2013

TOO MANY


My lips
Have known
Many souls

Judge me
Or
Don't

My lips
Have known
Many
Many Souls

I dare
To step
Out
Into day
And their gaze
Follow

In their eyes
I can see
I know
They know
My lips 
Have known
Too many


Warmth
Envelopes
My sad smile

I could 
Forget

But my flesh
Reeks
Of him
And him
And him

My lips 
Have known
They have known
Too much

The sky 
Is a mirror
I look up
And 
I'm multiplied
In me
I see dark
Soft
Hard

My lips
Have known
Sweet
Sour
Shame
Too many
Too many souls


The dewdrops
Are my tears
And
The need
To be clean
Settles
In my heart
A need
To throw out
Remnants
Left
From him
And him 
And him
Too many
Souls


My lips
These lips
Have known
Too many
Too many souls

So Judge me
Or don't

Monday 10 June 2013

PASSION




The music
In my ears
Is my eyes
And visions
Emerge
In my head


Whips 
Wet
With 
Blood
Hang limp
In their hands
Murderers
Murderers

Partakers
In a wondrous tale
That shapes me now.

See
My Lord
Covered
In love;
Blood

See
Cloaked women
Trembling
I shiver 
Too

Grief
Imprisons them
And
 Me

See 
My calm 
Lord
Prays
Powerful
Weakness
Death
For life
He prays


His cry
Pierces
My soul
And I cry too...

Eli

Eli

My throat
Seals

My breathing
Slows

Love…
Unleashed

It 

surely

Is

Finished




Monday 3 June 2013

LUNAR...tic



I smile at the sun 
Struggling to take a peek 
At this earth 
From behind 
Those swollen 
Silver clouds 
And
My heart is hitting
Bass notes
Behind my breasts


New month!

I smile again
At the coopless hen
With her feathers
Hanging limp
Knowing...
She is cold 
She is wet
And
My hands move up
To touch my face
I am warm
Inside-out.


Now this smile
Travels to my eyes
And it bursts out 
In tears
Each drop
Is laughter
I shut them
Hearing...
The heavens laugh
With me
And I feel it
I am happy
I am free

Then a handful of
Smiles trickle down 
To my feet
Reminding me 
I'm
Lunar...tic
Insane 
I am...

Shhh...
Listen 
To my secret..

"I mirror
The moon
Most
In June"