PENITENCE...?

I probably should not

Be kneeling

Before this

Makeshift altar

But somehow

I got here

Not so sure

What to say 

Though

So you know what?

I’ll just kneel

And remain silent

Hoping

You decode

The words

Knocking

Against each other

In my mind

I can’t bear 

To speak

Of where

I have been

Were you around the corner

Somewhere watching?

I hope not

It would have 

Broken your heart

To see me

Strip down

And bathe

In that…

Never mind

Now,

See these tears?

I’m going 

To wipe them all

Off

I am not sure

Anymore

If they are genuine

Or maybe I just

Fake it well

My eyes are dry

And I’m breathless

My chest hurts

I can’t tell

If

It’s an infection

Or this pain

Is from last night’s…

Never mind

Do I get another chance?

Okay, forget I asked.

How shameless of me!

We both know

I have a knack

For messing up

Chances

Can we thrash this out

Another way?

Hello...

Are you following 

These thoughts?

Because

I’m really 

Not going

To say 

A word

It’s become 

A ritual

I’m too deflated

To repeat

So look,

I’m going to get up

Now

Assuming

This worked

You know

This...

This silence

Well

I hope it did

And oh,

One more thing

……

I Love You

Amen.