PENITENCE...?

I probably should not

Be kneeling

Before this

Makeshift altar

But somehow

I got here

Not so sure

What to say 

Though

So you know what?

I’ll just kneel

And remain silent

Hoping

You decode

The words

Knocking

Against each other

In my mind

I can’t bear 

To speak

Of where

I have been

Were you around the corner

Somewhere watching?

I hope not

It would have 

Broken your heart

To see me

Strip down

And bathe

In that…

Never mind

Now,

See these tears?

I’m going 

To wipe them all

Off

I am not sure

Anymore

If they are genuine

Or maybe I just

Fake it well

My eyes are dry

And I’m breathless

My chest hurts

I can’t tell

If

It’s an infection

Or this pain

Is from last night’s…

Never mind

Do I get another chance?

Okay, forget I asked.

How shameless of me!

We both know

I have a knack

For messing up

Chances

Can we thrash this out

Another way?

Hello...

Are you following 

These thoughts?

Because

I’m really 

Not going

To say 

A word

It’s become 

A ritual

I’m too deflated

To repeat

So look,

I’m going to get up

Now

Assuming

This worked

You know

This...

This silence

Well

I hope it did

And oh,

One more thing

……

I Love You

Amen.

TOO MANY

My lips

Have known

Many souls

Judge me

Or

Don't

My lips

Have known

Many

Many Souls

I dare

To step

Out

Into day

And their gaze

Follow

In their eyes

I can see

I know

They know

My lips 

Have known

Too many

Warmth

Envelopes

My sad smile

I could 

Forget

But my flesh

Reeks

Of him

And him

And him

My lips 

Have known

They have known

Too much

The sky 

Is a mirror

I look up

And 

I'm multiplied

In me

I see dark

Soft

Hard

My lips

Have known

Sweet

Sour

Shame

Too many

Too many souls

The dewdrops

Are my tears

And

The need

To be clean

Settles

In my heart

A need

To throw out

Remnants

Left

From him

And him 

And him

Too many

Souls

My lips

These lips

Have known

Too many

Too many souls

So Judge me

Or don't

PASSION

The music

In my ears

Is my eyes

And visions

Emerge

In my head

Whips 

Wet

With 

Blood

Hang limp

In their hands

Murderers

Murderers

Partakers

In a wondrous tale

That shapes me now.

See

My Lord

Covered

In love;

Blood

See

Cloaked women

Trembling

I shiver 

Too

Grief

Imprisons them

And

 Me

See 

My calm 

Lord

Prays

Powerful

Weakness

Death

For life

He prays

His cry

Pierces

My soul

And I cry too...

Eli

Eli

My throat

Seals

My breathing

Slows

Love…

Unleashed

It 

surely

Is

Finished

LUNAR...tic

I smile at the sun 

Struggling to take a peek 

At this earth 

From behind 

Those swollen 

Silver clouds 

And

My heart is hitting

Bass notes

Behind my breasts

New month!

I smile again

At the coopless hen

With her feathers

Hanging limp

Knowing...

She is cold 

She is wet

And

My hands move up

To touch my face

I am warm

Inside-out.

Now this smile

Travels to my eyes

And it bursts out 

In tears

Each drop

Is laughter

I shut them

Hearing...

The heavens laugh

With me

And I feel it

I am happy

I am free

Then a handful of

Smiles trickle down 

To my feet

Reminding me 

I'm

Lunar...tic

Insane 

I am...

Shhh...

Listen 

To my secret..

"I mirror

The moon

Most

In June"